Dear Dr. Darcy:
My boyfriend is so extremely obsessed with his physical appearance that it’s beginning to make me rethink our relationship. When I tell you he’s regimented about what he eats, when he eats and how much he eats, I’m not exaggerating. He will not eat after 4:30 in the afternoon (meaning at 4:30, he ingests his last meal, his last calorie, other than water with lemon or green tea…). 90% of all restaurants are off-limits. He’s decided he’s gluten intolerant, and before that he was a vegetarian who ate fish.
When I met him, he had maybe 10 lbs to lose, but he’s gone way beyond that. He used to weigh 175 and now I don’t think he even weighs 150. His face used to look youthful and now his cheeks are sunken and he looks older than his age. I don’t know what to do about this. I’ve also lost weight since his ‘health craze’ began. Every month he goes on a cleanse and because it affects our ability to connect over eating, he offers to buy me one as well (his cleanses are pretty expensive/roughly 500.00 each). The subject of food and his weight are so touchy that I’m afraid to bring it up in conversation, which has led me to recently contemplate exiting the relationship. I think it will be easier to walk away than to get him to see himself and his eating disorder accurately.
Eating disorders are a growing issue among men, particularly among gay men. You’ve got your hands full, boyfriend. I feel myself wanting to skip a meal just reading about your story. I can’t imagine what you must go through living with this.
I don’t normally suggest that people pack their bags and leave their partners, but I think it’s bad for both of you to allow the status quo to continue indefinitely. Aside from the fact that eating disorders can be contagious, I’m seriously concerned for his health. If I were you, I’d use where you are emotionally to fuel your ability to have 1 final conversation about the issue and in that conversation I’d say this:
“I love you ~ but I don’t love being with you anymore. Your issues around food and body weight are taking up more space in this relationship than the two of us, and if you’re not willing to get help today, I’m going to have to say goodbye.”
Let me clarify one final thing: I'm not suggesting that he see a therapist. I'm suggesting that he needs to go away somewhere - to live, for 30 or more days. I will update this post by the end of the day with referrals for where to send him. It won’t be cheap and when he balks at the cost, remind him of all the dough he’ll be saving by not having to buy the two of you monthly cleanses at a grand a pop. And let me tell you this: If you don’t have this conversation with him, 1 of 2 things will happen: Either he’ll die and you’ll spend the rest of your life regretting that you didn’t take a stronger stand, or you’ll join him in his eating disorder. Grab your balls and do the right thing. Unless you want to be his roommate in rehab. That was a joke. Any decent rehab won't take the two of you at the same time, so don't get any cute ideas.
Writer’s Stats: Male, Gay.